This week I received a notification that you’d posted an audio called ‘The Only Touch’, it was meant to be about the sensation of wearing panties and to condition sissies to wear them. I followed the link to Patreon and tried to listen to it, but I got a message that said it had been deleted. Have I missed a step? I loved the description of what’s in this audio and really want to listen it, seems to be perfectly suited to me as a full time panty wearer. Anyway all this got me thinking about panties, so I’ve written another short story from my sissy perspective, I’ve called it ‘A Sissy’s Only Touch’. 

As a sissy, this feeling, it never gets old. Doesn’t matter how many times and in how many styles, the thrill is always there. From the very first time of putting on panties, things are never the same again. That one act of knowingly putting manliness aside, and instead choose willingly to be clothed in feminine underwear, it’s transformative. Real men don’t do this, they want whatever men want. But I have learned not to resist, and to train myself to accept this which is undeniably feminine. While the rest of the world carries on around me, I always feel reassured that I am wearing my panties. For me it is irresistible, comforting, and defining. 

I have been caught before. It doesn’t matter, I am a sissy, and I belong in panties. I wouldn’t feel genuine otherwise. It’d be a disservice to wear anything else, to myself, to Alphas, to fellow sissies, to Ms Divine. My heart flutters whenever newly ordered panties arrive at my door. They each offer a belonging and a gentle purpose. To be overtly feminine, to embody being a sissy, to feel my sweet little self be at peace. Of course it’s exciting, but with a little thoughtfulness, I’ve realised it’s actually required. I’ve listened to Alphas who get frustrated with sissies who don’t wear panties full time, I know I won’t disappoint them. 

Whilst Alphas are doing Alpha things together, I am in my panties. I’m not worried about being ruined by it, I feel safe in my panties. When passing a shop window of lingerie, real men fantasise about a woman wearing them. 

As a sissy, I’d feel inappropriate to have such thoughts about women, it would be rude. I’ve accepted my place is to buy and wear the lingerie, and to do so without shame, complaint or fuss. I feel a privilege when wearing my panties. There is so much more joy in emulating women. It seems silly that I tried to date them. ‘Dating women? Isn’t that what Alpha men are for?’, is what I often think when I make my purchases. 

It is my only touch, and how I love it. It’s impossible to feel normal if I’m not wearing panties. Sometimes I think to myself, ‘Is this really conditioning affecting me? when I’m the one who’s deliberately looking for encouragement?’. It’s my lifestyle now, panties for work, rest, and play. I’ve seen how others choose to live, but this is for me, this is what feels right. There’s something else too, a feeling of not wanting to change. Instead my soft self just desires to feel content, with no heartache, just feel the pleasing embrace of my panties. Everyday they help me keep calm as I walk around the vanilla world. ‘It’s alright’, I say in my head ‘you are a sissy, you wear panties, this is meant for you, it’s ok to be happy’.